Friday's Thoughts

I decided this morning that I am fed up with the Special Needs label. Who came up with it anyway??...It just makes no effing sense! Special Needs??? What the hell does that mean anyway?? Sally from "When Harry Met Sally" ordered everything on the side, now that’s Special Needs. But nOOOOOOOOObody said she had Special Needs….In fact I don’t even think Special Needs was invented back then. Back then I know of somebody who thought of themselves as a "square peg in round hole"??? Did anybody ever stop to think that they weren’t playing a game of "Perfection"???? Or the time when I was talking to somebody and they said about somebody else I was chatting with.."Oh her elevator dosen’t go to the top floor"...Say what??…I didn’t know people were buildings…

People wanting to be made love to and not just f@cked laid or screwed, that’s Special Needs!

Then there's the ole Sensory Issues….Um, there are going be kids who scream when the lights go out…There are people who won’t “work for their food” and eat anything off a bone because it’s too much work????? What about people who refuse to sleep on the opposite side of the bed??? Then again, I stopped eating Lobster years ago because there was just something unappetizing about having this dead thing on my plate staring at me with it’s beady little eyes…then having to tear the thing apart and having to dig for food, no thanks :-)

Agree??? Disagree??

Go Figure!!!!!

I don’t think I nor anybody will ever understand G-d and the mysterious ways. How we can receive such amazing and life altering blessings, feel such overwhelming joy and maybe even relief and being thankful for those gifts one moment and yet at other moments find ourselves screaming “NO-O-OOO”!!!!! We’ve gotta have friends and family in more then name only for richer or poorer and in sickness and in health…Sometimes I think friends should make similar vows??? Maybe not??? Curious to hear your thoughts!

On a much lighter note…..Last week, My 8 year old son once again demanded a cellphone. He's 8, I am still looking to sell my writing, so I am home, why the hell does he need a cell phone???? So he can sit in class and get yelled at for sneaking in his cell phone to play Club Penguin???? I can hear it now…”Don’t tell me I can’t bring my cellphone into the classroom, you didn’t buy it, you’re not in charge of my cell phone.”

Then the Wii fights…This mornings conversation with my son….”Don’t tell me what to do with my birthday money…If I want to go out and buy Wii Resort I will. You can’t tell me what to do with my money. If I want to go out and spend 5o dollars on Wii Resort I can do that! I know the value of a dollar, you don’t need to teach me the value of a dollar. If I want a hundred toys, I am going to buy a hundred toys, you never buy me ANYTHING”….So after validating his feelings I told him that it’s ok to want more and there will always be kids who have more then him and less then him…The rant continued so I told him to go look in his closets and honored his request for a bowl of icecream to make him feel better…

So my husband just came across an electronic chess and checkers game set??? Are you kidding??? What happened to moving pieces across a f@cking chess board??? LOL “Fine get one for your son and get one as a gift… Fine, get two as gifts” UGH!!!

And finally….My son ate a poppy seed bagel for dinner. I asked him to please eat the bagel over the countertop because the seeds are going on the floor…So I just cleaned the dark stained hardwood floor again and yet again…I now have poppyseeds on my wood floor, my husbands slippers, my socks, my kid’s feet, the slits in between the floor planks, probably in my bed and by now in my kid’s bed. I am forever beholden to poppyseeds!!!

Listen to me real carefully….NO MORE POPPYSEED BAGELS IN THIS APT….

Sometimes I Wonder.......

I hope everybody is having a terrific over the hump day!!!

The things people say….I heard yesterday that President Obama got caught calling Kanye West a jackass, when his mike was on during an interview break. If you wondered what he was thinking, now you know and if you didn’t wonder well now you know whether you wanted to or not.

So speaking of things people say, I am now including my son...While we were on vacation out West, I told my eight year old son, Kevin, upon asking for one thing after another such as souvenirs and another Wii game, that it’s ok to keep on wanting things, G-d knows I will always want something, like a lake house and as of Sunday with baby goats, so I guess that makes it a country house
:-)!!!!!!! I explained to him that if he wants new Wii games etc. that he will have to donate or sell a toy for every new one that he wants. I also tried something new…. I told him that he and I should start volunteering at a soup kitchen on Saturdays so that he can appreciate what he has and what others don’t have… He loved that idea, let me tell you, I was soo proud of him…So this is what he had to say....”I am not volunteering at a soup kitchen, I want to play on the weekends and have fun, it’s not my problem they don’t have a place to eat and the rant went on…..So much for teaching values to a Pre-Tween!!!…Oh, by the way.... No new Wii game yet!!!

Growing Pains

So I decided to put my six year old daughter Sara, into an acting, dancing, and music class on Saturdays from 10 am – 1pm. Ever wake up and not know where you are??? My husbands alarm went off at 7am, I knew the kids didn’t have school and for the life of me, could not understand why I was woken up! So I decided it would come to me and I would go back to sleep, it did. There was something on the show “Brothers and Sisters” where there was a scene where the family matriarch Nora was waking up one morning feeling blissful and all of a sudden reality set in….Ever have those moments where you just wake up one morning feeling like wow, I feel absolutely nothing and then wham two seconds later the stress of being, for some anyway, kicks in. It’s an unusual feeling.

So my daughter was yelling and screaming Saturday morning, saying she was stupid and didn’t want to go. After saying I know you are afraid and I am afraid too when I write, she started going thru the motions of getting ready, resisting me along the way.

So long story short we got to her class and after clinging onto me for five minutes…she tells me to leave!!!!!!! I told her I loved her and left…another thought came true…That this year my kids will be starting school as one person and coming out as another, my kids who I probably won’t even recognize when they “graduate” in June. I walked out with a great sense of accomplishment and loss. It turns out she did well and will hopefully continue until the semester ends in December.

My children are Early Intervention babies. It took years to get them to talk; walking for them was the easy part. Now I, like others are constantly telling them to sit down and keep quiet!  I have always wanted to foster their need for independence as much as I can and sometimes it can make us nuts because they want to do everything. Now I embrace the fact that eventually our family cuddles will come to an end some day and want time to stand still for a few seconds so I can still enjoy them while they are young.

We want them to grow up to be these wonderful human beings and yet we still somehow find a way to keep them young because it isn’t necessarily them, but maybe us who aren’t ready to let go.

It’s such a conflicting set of emotions “People like Us” have, don’t you think????

Life and What We Make of It

Hi Everybody, I hope this day is going ok for you. I hesitate to say great because, well it's kinda hard for it to be great considering it IS 9/11 but because we are all surviving and thriving we can make this day better for us in overcoming our obstacles and achieving our goals. With the risk of sounding dumb I am going to go out on a limb here as I have total confidence that you will put me in my place :-)

I think everybody has similar thoughts on how they ought to view a criminally tragic (does that make sense) anniversary, (yowzer, plane flying overhead as I write this, creepy) such as today.

Do we think, hug the ones we love and tell them that you love them??? Do we look at how so many lives have been helped or even saved because of the charities created in memory of 9/11 victims? Hmm, I never thought about that one before...Do we take stock of our lives and just change careers, spouses, residences, etc. possibly on a lark, while we can before we regret not fulfilling our passions?? My latest expression has been "Just do it, but responsibly". Go after your dreams, but be sure you can handle your cost of living expenses, forget about just being able to pay the bills.

Feel the fear, do it anyway, responsibly, and just go for it as we have just one life to live! If you need hand holding, so... go hold someone's hand! :-)

What do you think??? How should we give 9/11 meaning to our lives or should we?? Why do some of us have the need to give THIS day meaning or even feel the need to reevaluate their lives??? Why not just think......"It is what it is", sh*t happens"...

Back To School

What a sigh of relief. Yesterday was my children's first day back at school; My son is in 3rd Grade and my daughter is in 1st Grade. Luckily they liked their teachers, listened, learned and had fun. It is now Day 2... I hope the "Honeymoon Phase" lasts for a little while. So....What are your thoughts on this whole back to school experience??? :-)