Life's Setbacks and Bounce Backs

Hi Everybody, I hope this new year is treating you all well or in the very least giving you all the strength to overcome your obstacles and achieve your goals.

So I haven't been blogging for a while because I found myself in another life altering battle, this one some call the "F" word, I call it what it is...Fibromyalgia (Chronic Fatigue and Chronic Pain to keep it simple).

I miss the high functioning life I used to have and now have to strategize to get back. I was writing ideas and storylines for my sitcom, looking for an agent, organizating and running semi monthly luncheons for moms of children with Special Needs, soliciting for my children's school auction, and most importantly being the fun mom I want to be. Now it's more of "I'm tired" before offering other suggestions to my kids instead of jumping right in as usual. I am grateful that I was well enough to celebrate Hanukkah with my family and was surrounded by family and friends for Christmas (even us Jews want to have fun) and New Years.

My routine has come down to waking up with pain somewhere, (yes I know I am lucky to be waking up :-), getting the kids ready for school while hoping Jan, my husband, can take them and then having the energy to empty the dishwasher and get at least one load of laundry done. I am grateful for when Jan empties the dishwasher as an additional 5 minutes of help creates less pain for me. Then it's off to Physical Therapy before getting hydroculators on my shoulders and back...You know when you are in trouble when you look forward to feeling the heat over the stretching :-).

Right now I feel like a weeble, "Weebles wobble but they don't fall down". There are reasons why I have experienced the joy and sorrow I have experienced on my journey and I know, life lessons to be learned. Yet, it's frustrating and time intensive having to take a step back from achieving my vision of what can be, to nurture myself back to my consistant state of proaction and optimism intead of using those traits to continue to forge ahead to realize my dreams of selling my television writing and enjoying the time I want to have with my family and friends while we are all still in the same state!

My hope for all of us is that as we forge on in our journeys is that we do understand so I have been told and have read, that we have life lessons to learn and sharing to give as we are all in this together and need each other to not just survive but thrive. My hope is that in times of challenges or even darkness that we can find the energy to tweak on what needs to be tweak and continue to be our proactive selves while living life to it's fullest potential. And in the midst of living life to it's fullest potential, that we embrace every joyful moment we experience.

Speaking of forging ahead, I find myself slowly going back to blogging, sitcom writing, looking for an agent, socializing, soliciting for our March school auction, organizing a January lucheon, and most importantly being the fun and nurturing mom and wife I have thrived on being. If I have to nap like a puppy, then so be it!

By the way, in wanting to continue to be the fun mom, I decided that it was silly to stop buying Poppyseed bagels...So what if they are a brain pain to clean up in between the wood floor slats, that's what Swiffers are made for, right? :-)